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Sunday, April 24, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
overcaring...
I know a lot of times I come off as a person who doesn't give a shit about others and doesn't really care what you have to say. If you know me, you know that's not true. I overly care about people and I almost think it's a flaw of mine at this point. I want to make sure everyone is ok. I don't care if we haven't spoken in a long time or last week, if something is wrong...you can count on me. I know life is hard, I know I've been through hell and I want to try to make it at least a bit easier for people around me. I want people to be able to open up to me and be comfortable sharing things with me with an unbiased opinion. I will sure give you my opinion when you're done speaking, but I'll let your thoughts flow first.
I'm a pisces, I can't help this. It's a part of my brain that I just can't shut off. No matter what happens with most people, I will always care. There is always going to be a part of me that cares about you and wants you to be okay and happy. If I was shitty to you, or you were shitty to me...there will always be a part of me that wants to hear from you and know you're ok.
I'm a pisces, I can't help this. It's a part of my brain that I just can't shut off. No matter what happens with most people, I will always care. There is always going to be a part of me that cares about you and wants you to be okay and happy. If I was shitty to you, or you were shitty to me...there will always be a part of me that wants to hear from you and know you're ok.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Vegas Vacation Pt. 2
I have returned back to Illinois, which I wasn't exactly happy about. Vacation was overall wonderful. I left off at the night before the Lady Gaga concert. The show was amazing. We didn't have the best seats but I highly enjoyed them. We had a few drinks before the concert and had an impromptu fashion show in our room (pictures on facebook). The rest of the time was full of shopping, walking and eating. We did gamble a bit more and lose some money, but it's vegas. You have to expect that! I did come back with the urge to play video roulette and video blackjack. Those games were quite a good time. I am really glad I was able to go to Vegas and experience this. It was something I believe everyone should do at least once in their life. Even if you're not into the drinking or partying or gambling scene, it's still a sight to see. I'm very happy we were there during Earth Hour and were able to see the Strip almost completely dark.
Craziness happens in Vegas. You just have to open your arms and accept it. Yes, I did something that maybe I shouldn't have. I opened myself up to new experiences. I even faced a fear and it wasn't so terrible. Life is one experience after another, they're not all good but they're not all bad. You learn from what you've done and move onto the next situation. Don't dwell on it, but remember all the fun times...if you can.
Craziness happens in Vegas. You just have to open your arms and accept it. Yes, I did something that maybe I shouldn't have. I opened myself up to new experiences. I even faced a fear and it wasn't so terrible. Life is one experience after another, they're not all good but they're not all bad. You learn from what you've done and move onto the next situation. Don't dwell on it, but remember all the fun times...if you can.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
Vegas Vacation Pt. 1
It's been two days in vegas now. We've had a very laid back stay so far. We don't need to party hard in the beginning since we've got so much time here. It's not a sprint, it's a marathon.
We landed 3 hours later than expected, which was not lovely at all. Spirit airlines is pretty much the worst. All the reviews we had read were dead on. No leg room, had to pay for every little thing, and the plane wasn't exactly clean. I felt horrible for the very tall man who couldn't even fit in his seat and hand his legs hanging out into the aisle. I'm sure that was a safety hazard, but there was no way he was fitting. I didnt see him get up, but I believe they gave him a seat up front where he could fit better. Taking Spirit home and never flying them again, I don't care how cheap they are. A 3 hour delay is just uncalled for. It was a 2 hour delay when we got to the airport at 8pm and we didn't actually take off until 1am. I got a hold of my old friend/coworker Scott who now lives in vegas. He said to let him know when we land and he'd pick us up. Unfortunately, he had fallen asleep and we took a cab to the airport. He called a bit later and met up with us since we wanted to check out some penny slots. We did a little gambling and then Sarah went to bed and I went out with Scott. He drove me up and down the strip and we stopped for food. I didn't get back to the room until almost 7am. How I stayed up that late is beyond me.
We had a lovely relaxing day. Got up late, went for breakfast at 1pm. We took the tram to the Excalibur and did a little sightseeing. We went to the shops in Mandalay Bay and there is a purse in the Guinness store that I am determined to purchase with gambling winnings.We sat and had a drink at the bar at Excalibur while watching the Cubs/Sox game. We then made our way to the Nurture Spa at Luxor. It was A-MAZ-ING. I've never had such an amazing massage ever. I would highly recommend going there. Luckily we were there while they were running a special. a 50 minute massage was only 50 bucks. I treated Sarah to her first massage and possibly got her addicted, which is only fair since I am now addicted to video roulette and blackjack. I don't think I'll ever play at a real table. Video is less pressure. I had almost half what I needed for that purse and lost most of it. I started playing my winnings again, we'll be going again tomorrow.
Now it's time to wind down and go to bed. We have a big day tomorrow. Shopping and GAGA!
We landed 3 hours later than expected, which was not lovely at all. Spirit airlines is pretty much the worst. All the reviews we had read were dead on. No leg room, had to pay for every little thing, and the plane wasn't exactly clean. I felt horrible for the very tall man who couldn't even fit in his seat and hand his legs hanging out into the aisle. I'm sure that was a safety hazard, but there was no way he was fitting. I didnt see him get up, but I believe they gave him a seat up front where he could fit better. Taking Spirit home and never flying them again, I don't care how cheap they are. A 3 hour delay is just uncalled for. It was a 2 hour delay when we got to the airport at 8pm and we didn't actually take off until 1am. I got a hold of my old friend/coworker Scott who now lives in vegas. He said to let him know when we land and he'd pick us up. Unfortunately, he had fallen asleep and we took a cab to the airport. He called a bit later and met up with us since we wanted to check out some penny slots. We did a little gambling and then Sarah went to bed and I went out with Scott. He drove me up and down the strip and we stopped for food. I didn't get back to the room until almost 7am. How I stayed up that late is beyond me.
We had a lovely relaxing day. Got up late, went for breakfast at 1pm. We took the tram to the Excalibur and did a little sightseeing. We went to the shops in Mandalay Bay and there is a purse in the Guinness store that I am determined to purchase with gambling winnings.We sat and had a drink at the bar at Excalibur while watching the Cubs/Sox game. We then made our way to the Nurture Spa at Luxor. It was A-MAZ-ING. I've never had such an amazing massage ever. I would highly recommend going there. Luckily we were there while they were running a special. a 50 minute massage was only 50 bucks. I treated Sarah to her first massage and possibly got her addicted, which is only fair since I am now addicted to video roulette and blackjack. I don't think I'll ever play at a real table. Video is less pressure. I had almost half what I needed for that purse and lost most of it. I started playing my winnings again, we'll be going again tomorrow.
Now it's time to wind down and go to bed. We have a big day tomorrow. Shopping and GAGA!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Age is just a number...25 is a strange number
I turned 25 yesterday. When you're little and think about where your life and where you will be when you're older. I never thought I'd be in the position I am today, but sometimes you just can't help where life takes you. I was really freaked out about turning 25. I had my quarter life crisis and I completely lost my mind.There was a lot going on in my life, and that didn't help me contain the crazy. I'm feeling a lot better now. I think all the changes that happened are for the better.
I was completely relaxed about my birthday celebration. Every year, I get incredibly stressed about it. I always fear that no one is going to show up or have any fun. This year, I just let it happen. When people asked who was going to be there, I simply said "I don't know." I wasn't worried about it at all. I was so happy to see the people I did see. I think it means a lot when people show up for your birthday. It shows you who your friends really are. There were a lot of us last night and it made me smile all night. There were some issues with dinner, but I didn't stress too much. Dinner took FOREVER and our waitress was pretty terrible. I didn't let it bother me too much. I'm never one to complain at a restaurant and I never want to be at a table that does complain, but when Staci wanted to say something, I didn't stop her.
I did what I set out to do on my birthday. I got to see great friends, play video games and have some adult beverages. The night ended how I wanted it to. It was one of the best birthdays I've had.
I was completely relaxed about my birthday celebration. Every year, I get incredibly stressed about it. I always fear that no one is going to show up or have any fun. This year, I just let it happen. When people asked who was going to be there, I simply said "I don't know." I wasn't worried about it at all. I was so happy to see the people I did see. I think it means a lot when people show up for your birthday. It shows you who your friends really are. There were a lot of us last night and it made me smile all night. There were some issues with dinner, but I didn't stress too much. Dinner took FOREVER and our waitress was pretty terrible. I didn't let it bother me too much. I'm never one to complain at a restaurant and I never want to be at a table that does complain, but when Staci wanted to say something, I didn't stop her.
I did what I set out to do on my birthday. I got to see great friends, play video games and have some adult beverages. The night ended how I wanted it to. It was one of the best birthdays I've had.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Vacation has commenced
My two weeks off work have officially started. It's lovely knowing I don't have to wake up every morning and go somewhere. I'm going to sleep in A LOT. I love sleep.
My vacation kicked off with St Patrick's day. I am a fan of this holiday. I'm proud of my Irish heritage. I went out to Dekalb to hang out with Fucker for the occasion. We were pretty lame in the start of the day, we took a nap. Eventually we busted out the Jameson and met up with some friends at the bar. From what I can remember it was a fabulous time. There were plenty of green beers, shots and fantastic people around. I'm still wondering why I thought it was a good idea to walk back to the house from the bar. We only made it about halfway. We made it about 10 feet before bitching about walking. I hope I didn't make a total ass of myself, but really, what does it matter? I get a little out of control sometimes. I don't remember going to bed, but drunk Loryn did plug my phone in, which makes me laugh. No matter what happens, my phone will always get charged overnight.
The drive home was not pleasant. My tire went flat on the highway and I had to sit there for awhile for my dad to come. I attempted to change the tire myself, which is difficult to do in a skirt. Just a few minutes after I had begun this, the HELP truck came by but was not so much help. Since I have aftermarket tires, I needed a special tool to take off the lugnuts. Well, this special tool was never returned to me from Discount Tire last month. I was going to be so proud of myself if I changed my own tire, but alas, I could not. Now I have to buy a new wheel and tire. I'm not exactly thrilled about this, but at least I don't have to do much driving before my next paycheck so I can blow hundreds of dollars on this.
My vacation kicked off with St Patrick's day. I am a fan of this holiday. I'm proud of my Irish heritage. I went out to Dekalb to hang out with Fucker for the occasion. We were pretty lame in the start of the day, we took a nap. Eventually we busted out the Jameson and met up with some friends at the bar. From what I can remember it was a fabulous time. There were plenty of green beers, shots and fantastic people around. I'm still wondering why I thought it was a good idea to walk back to the house from the bar. We only made it about halfway. We made it about 10 feet before bitching about walking. I hope I didn't make a total ass of myself, but really, what does it matter? I get a little out of control sometimes. I don't remember going to bed, but drunk Loryn did plug my phone in, which makes me laugh. No matter what happens, my phone will always get charged overnight.
The drive home was not pleasant. My tire went flat on the highway and I had to sit there for awhile for my dad to come. I attempted to change the tire myself, which is difficult to do in a skirt. Just a few minutes after I had begun this, the HELP truck came by but was not so much help. Since I have aftermarket tires, I needed a special tool to take off the lugnuts. Well, this special tool was never returned to me from Discount Tire last month. I was going to be so proud of myself if I changed my own tire, but alas, I could not. Now I have to buy a new wheel and tire. I'm not exactly thrilled about this, but at least I don't have to do much driving before my next paycheck so I can blow hundreds of dollars on this.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Upcoming birthday
My birthday is in a few days and I always get super stressed about it. I always fear that no one else is going to care or show up. I don't really like my birthday, I just want my friends around to have a good time.I want to go out, have a good time and be surrounded by good people. I thought it was going to be a lot harder with everything that's been going on, but I've been strong. I know I'm going to have a good time. I have the people I love being around, all in one place. I think from now on, I'm not going to get stressed about my birthday and just enjoy it. I'm going to stop feeling old and embracing everything as it comes at me. at almost 25, it's time to start living again.
Monday, March 14, 2011
New arrivals!
A congratulations goes out to my friends Oli and Mendy for the lil bundle of joy this morning. Oliver John McIntosh II 6lb 14oz 20 inches
A weekend away...
A few weeks ago, I decided I needed to get away. Despite going to vegas soon, I'm looking to fill my time with as many activities as I can. I went to Grand Rapids Michigan and Kalamazoo this last weekend. It was fun for the most part. I really can't stand much electronic music anymore. That part of my life is gone for the most part. It's not something I will willingly play in my car when going anywhere. Sometimes, I do enjoy a night out at Smartbar, but it has to be on my own terms. Pete was spinning in public for the first time and I was there to support him. I spent most of the night by myself observing everything and I greatly enjoyed it. I'm not really a social person. I don't talk to strangers. I just do my thing. You'll often find me texting, which was in full effect that night. I had a few drinks in me and my fingers went wild. We went to an after hours party, to which I don't remember a whole lot. We left around 6am, it was way passed my bedtime at this point. I fell asleep in the car on the way home. I was surprised I did, but I was incredibly tired. The rest of the weekend wasn't so great. I had to endure even more music I didn't want to hear while sitting by myself at Pete's friends house. They were in their own little world, while I sat alone with the cat. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my Saturday night visiting a friend. Eventually I told him I'd like to go back to the house. He dropped me off and went back to hanging out. I threw on Animal House and went to bed. I wasn't thrilled about sitting around and listening to electronic music all weekend, I didn't think i would have to endure that much. Overall the trip was pretty decent. the drive wasn't horrible. I stopped at Redamak's on my way home for a delicious burger. When I got home, I relaxed and watched the Cubs game. I had a wonderful conversation with a very good friend for the rest of the night. I ordered things for vegas. I messed with my budget a bit this weekend, but you only live once!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Getting away is inevitable
My vacation is fast approaching. I've never before been able to take an entire two weeks off of work before. Not only am I taking off two weeks, I am actually GOING somewhere. Come March 23rd, I will be stepping onto a plane with one of my very good friends and flying off to Viva Las Vegas!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
it is...what it is?
You think its a sickness, but its not a sickness. It sure feels like one. You're naseuous and dizzy.there's a feeling deep in the pit of your stomach. You're lost. You feel like a part is missing, but medically speaking, you're whole. you dont want to go on, it feels like the end. you have to push through. this is life. you can't just stop it on a dime because of this. things will get hard, and then they will get better. you may think like it is the end, but in a way, it's just the beginning. you will breath again, you wont feel the sickness. you'll start your day with a smile and you'll even end it with one. dont dwell on the bad times, remember all the great times. you can always have more. tell yourself this isn't the end, but a whole new beginning. a new chapter. enjoy yourself.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Opening...
I started this blog to be more open about my life and my thoughts. I have pretty much failed at that. I wanted to write everyday. I have clearly failed at that. It's really hard going from a completely closed off person to a semi-open person. I don't really like to share my thoughts and feelings. I'm starting to think if maybe I change that, I'll somehow better myself. You could call me paranoid since a reason I don't like to share my thoughts is being I assume people are going to use it against me. I need to realize, because it HAS happened in the passed, it might not happen again. I really don't have much that can be used against me. What would people do anyways? Try to use my heartbreak against me? That's already killing me enough in my own brain. Which leads me to my thought of the day...
How terrible of a person am I that he feels the need to fuck me over? Am I so shitty I don't deserve to be civil with? If i did something wrong, I would really love to know what it was. I am trying to convince myself that I'm not a horrid human being. I felt I was doing a lot better with this, but then today, I guess I just don't fully understand. I gave myself to a person completely and it didn't turn out in my favor. I gave everything I had and it wasn't enough. My life stopped on a dime and my heart ripped out of my chest. I never knew the pain I felt was even possible for me. Did I care too much? Should I have stopped myself from falling in love? What kind of a life would that be? I feel so lost with everything now. I feel like my independence has been taken away from me, as odd as that sounds. I have to start a new life. My thoughts are jumbled and nothing really makes sense anymore.
Life is terrifying. You have to push through. No matter what happens. You have to fight your battles and wave your white flag when you know it's time. Things will change, things will get better...in time.
How terrible of a person am I that he feels the need to fuck me over? Am I so shitty I don't deserve to be civil with? If i did something wrong, I would really love to know what it was. I am trying to convince myself that I'm not a horrid human being. I felt I was doing a lot better with this, but then today, I guess I just don't fully understand. I gave myself to a person completely and it didn't turn out in my favor. I gave everything I had and it wasn't enough. My life stopped on a dime and my heart ripped out of my chest. I never knew the pain I felt was even possible for me. Did I care too much? Should I have stopped myself from falling in love? What kind of a life would that be? I feel so lost with everything now. I feel like my independence has been taken away from me, as odd as that sounds. I have to start a new life. My thoughts are jumbled and nothing really makes sense anymore.
Life is terrifying. You have to push through. No matter what happens. You have to fight your battles and wave your white flag when you know it's time. Things will change, things will get better...in time.
Monday, February 21, 2011
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